Why do I hang on to them after 4 years you may wonder.... Well Ive put them in the D.I. pile (or Goodwill for non Utah folks) several times and Jared keeps taking them out. He wants me to keep them because "I will get back in em soon." He thinks they help set a goal for me, and they probably should. Except all they really do is remind me how many times ive TRIED to get back in them and FAILED. It feels like a complete lost cause.... and that makes me want to break down and cry.
I obviously cant loose weight on my own, I cant afford a personal trainer and personal chef and Im not doing those crazy fad diets. So what am I supposed to do? Some days I feel so disgusted with myself. Today is definitely one of the thousands....
