Am I happy? Absolutely. Jared and I are ecstatic to welcome any and all children Heavenly Father blesses us with. Its going to be a blast to have that many kiddos running around. There will never be a dull moment in our house. Thats already more siblings that I had and almost as many as Jared had growing up so it will be so much fun raising these babies.
Am I overwhelmed? On Monday when we found out, I was all tears and stress. Tuesday wasn't much different. Wednesday got better and by Saturday I didn't feel that desperation feeling in my gut anymore. My family has been beyond amazing at getting a plan together, brainstorming and helping us grip reality and embrace it. So though I know this is going to be insanely hectic, Im not overwhelmed anymore.
Am I scared? To death. How selfish is that! I have always been terrified of being pregnant and giving birth. I was that kid at 4 and 5 years old who WOULD NOT CLIMB THAT TREE! because I was NOT breaking an arm. I would ALWAYS brush my teeth 2x a day because I wasn't getting a needle in my mouth. So I've never broken a bone. Never had a cavity. Had my wisdom teeth and tonsils out(couldn't prevent either one of those!). Other than that, Im needle free. I'm terrified of the things this pregnancy and C-section will involve and the load it will put on my body. And I think I will be until its over. How sad is that.
Well we are well into week 9 and the babies are progressing. I can feel my belly getting "fuller" on the inside. They should each be around 2.5-3 CM. They have ears and toes now too. Basically they are starting to look much LESS alien. HA! My least two favorite things everyday are things I HAVE to do more than once. EAT and BRUSH MY TEETH! I hate toothpaste and I gag so bad every time I brush. It sucks. I haven't thrown up yet! YEA! I have, however, looked into several toilets and almost surrendered. But I closed my eyes and said "NO! Im NOT throwing up!" I barely eat as it is and these babies NEED what I put in there!
Also been trying to wrap my head around how much weight I will actually be gaining. Around 50-70 pounds is recommended for triplets. So yes, I will be fat. Crap... Another "gasp" fact of triplets I read about this week: diapers. The average baby will go through 10 diapers a day. Times that by 3 and you get 30. Thats over 200 in a week. And yes thats almost 1000 in a month. Feel sorry for me yet?! HA! I feel sorry for the environment. Diapers don't break down.